everything is gonna be fine in 2012. 2012 will be a good year with a good timetable, a better ih in the season, nicer people, and a finer mood.
i’m so gonna get drunk tonight and spend my countdown with my awesome girls, and my favourite drinks:D
AN AWESOME NEW YEAR AHEAD!
xoxo,qing!
feeling very terrible. very very very terrible and upset. its been 24 hrs and his fever has not gone down and now he’s like, not waking up.
i cant help but to keep worrying but i cant cry because i cannot go for joint hall with a pair of swollen red eyes.
but why. why must you add on something so horrible to a kid who has actually been going through the worst.
nothing’s going right these days.
i need a shoulder to cry on.
everyone is feeling very down over 外婆’s house being robbed. even when mum was talking to me she didnt sound very good. everything was gone and the thief has taken all the valuable things that he could take.
外婆 was fking upset that she lost all the gold she’s been keeping for more than a decade. i just wished i could be there to hug her and tell her everything will be fine and all the things can be earned back as long as she’s fine and not hurt. i know how much she cares for all these jewelry and they’re not mere valuables but they’re memories to her. knowing im not of any help i listened to my mum as she was on the phone talking about how they came back from malacca happily initially and when they found out the whole robbery thing it was like damn spoil mood.
mum said :如果你在这里就好.
didnt start the day with a very good morning partly i lao sai-ed for around 30 min i think because of the christmas steamboat. dont know why but ever since the stomach flu my stomach has been weaker and more prone to lao sai. did pitch batting and again i got afraid at every ball my hits were flousy. stayed under the hot sun for isg captains ball and drained away 99.9% of my energy.
the schedules are so messy i dont know which schedule should i look at and both schedules talk about the same things but the timings are so off. or im actually too dumb. i think i am just too dumb and i should just go and fk myself instead of trying to figure out if there’s hockey on 30th because the overall IHG schedule says there is but the Hall 11 schedule says there isnt. so now what what what. i need to go get my eyes checked isit.
i dont know what im supposed to do nowadays. dont know what im looking forward to. dont know what to feel.
不要惹我.
christmas’ over. then comes new year. then comes the new semester. then comes chinese new year.
everything comes and goes so quickly its so hard to grab hold onto wonderful memories. all you can do is to enjoy yourself fully while you can and when you look back you smile at those awesome moments you’ve spent with the people whom you care for and who care for you too.
its time for me to start reading books again btw.
自由是天上飞的翅膀 是被打破的框框
心中只有自己明白的自由 没有人能追得上的自由
向往的自由 是无拘无束的 不用任何交代的
只是没有人想过
自由久了 会觉得累
会想要偶尔卸下翅膀 停歇在绿荫中
会想要偶尔流几行眼泪 靠着宽厚的肩膀
会想要告诉某个人 今天我想回家吃饭
自由是自私的
偶尔想要自由 可是却觉得被遗忘了
偶尔想要被关心 可是又觉得被捆绑
人类是很矛盾的动物 可是这就是人类
要怎样才能
幸福地自由着
想必是个很深奥很深奥的一门学问
可能每个人心中都渴望像天上飞的风筝一样
那么靠近天堂 享受自由的风
到天黑了 仍然有人会把它带回家
沁.
its not working seriously.
im supposed to enjoy myself at home and eat and sleep and do nothing but i cant:( i think as im stuck here and unable to do anything i get really paranoid like whether the sports schedule is coming out soon or if my blk mags are planning their duties well or if the last first aid kit is found. sometimes as i was lying on my pillow i thought to myself if its impossible to balance between home and hall. the worse thing is i jumped up from my sleep because i realized i’ve booked air ticket back home for cny on the 18th night when blk supper is on the 19th so i went straight to switching on my mac and type a msg on the top 4 fb group asking the rest if its possible to change it to 17th because i really dont wanna miss cny blk supper, as a resident and more importantly as a vice president.
then it occurred to me that cny blk supper is not only about food but i nearly forgot we need to search for mandarin oranges and cny goodies and yusheng and all. which means, planning. which means time, which means uncertainties. luckily for this year blk supper is before cny itself so i guess its easier to get the stuff for cny but at the same time im afraid everything will be more expensive because the demand is high when everyone is preparing for cny instead of after cny the sellers cant wait to get rid of all the lets say oranges so they sell it cheap.
and again the next thing that occurred to me is CAEN meeting, and the next thing is getting the stuff for IH welfare and the next thing is do we have enough 100 plus to last us throughout the whole of IH.
i just keep thinking and thinking about all these and keep waiting and waiting for the sports schedule to come out and keep waiting for IH to start and be over and CNY blk supper to start and be over and so on and so forth.
when mum asked me why do i have to be back before 19th when school starts on the 9th of jan i was like, hall stuff. she gave me the usual you-dont-stay-home-for-long-as-usual face and it sort of saddened me. couldnt really sleep at night because i was thinking as i skip school to be home for a longer period of time for cny, i have indirectly sacrificed my attention for jcrc calendar thus it resulted in this mistake of booking ticket home for 18th jan when blk supper is on the 19th.
i hope things go smooth for IHG and also IH players dinner and also CNY blk supper and CNY dinner and everything until AGM. and its useless to feel this way but i really feel bad about not being physically there for jcrc meeting (although i was on skype) and also IH players dinner and also the Great Eastern talk and ive always wished i could teleport. then i can teleport between home and hall and school easily:D
i hope i dont get depression from thinking too much and being too paranoid.
xoxo,qing
比起玫瑰，她更喜欢向日葵。
桌上那单调的玻璃花瓶，好像很久都没有插她喜欢的向日葵了。
”天色很暗，都没有太阳。”她望着窗外，让细细的雨滴打在玻璃窗口。
爸爸妈妈还没有回来，所以她想自己一个人到市场，想好好地做一顿饭。
应该到此为止了。她觉得。分手其实没什么了不起的，又不是世界末日。伤心地把自己锁在家里两个礼拜不出来，反而让自己的爸爸妈妈担心了。
虽然天不作美，但市场还是有很多人。可能现在还早，所以夜市很多的零食摊都还没有开始营业，只有那些卖蔬果肉类的小贩，把早市卖不出去的货趁夜市的时候卖出去。
他很喜欢吃她炒的白萝卜丝。
只是需要用蒜头爆香，加上一点糖和盐调味，再把萝卜丝放进锅里加点水翻炒，就可以了。
她很讨厌这种时候，很不争气的自己。
明明想要彻底忘掉这个人，却更是无时无刻，想起跟他有关的点点滴滴。
“晓雁。”
哦，是家骏。
家骏是她的知己，也是个很了解很了解她的人。 在夜市遇到她，他一点也不讶异。
他知道，她是很坚强的女生。
“我康复了。”晓雁对着家骏笑说，但是嘴角的笑容还是有点勉强。
“你说了算。”
家骏常常都会让着她，除非她在犯错。
“你不信哦？”晓雁的另外一个特点就是很爱说服人。
“我没说我不信啊。”虽然他的确不相信。
“你对了啦。”晓雁的眼眶泛起泪，“有时候，我真的觉得自己很失败。”
“来夜市，是想买菜回家煮饭吗？”
面对难过，有时候跳开话题是最直接，最有用的方式。
至少看到晓雁的笑容，这招对她来说，是管用的。
爸爸妈妈回到家，看见她勤奋地做饭，完全摆脱了两个星期以来无精打采的样子，比任何人都吃惊。
可是他们没有说什么，爸爸就放下公事包，解开领带；妈妈把丝袜脱了放进洗衣机里。
“今天我们吃什么？难得我们家公主下厨。”爸爸折起袖子，在她身后偷看。
她转头对爸爸微笑，然后继续地专心翻着平底锅上一片片的马铃薯。
“家骏买了甜品要我带回来跟你们吃。”她才说起话来。
“你刚见到家骏了哦？”妈妈的脸上出现了担忧。
“嗯，在夜市看到他的。”她回答地很自然。
心里很想证明给爸爸妈妈看，自己是坚强的，是个不需要爸爸妈妈操心的女儿。
也想向自己证明，在跟家骏继续当好朋友的同时，也能忘记曾经的甜蜜。
一定可以这样的。
back home in the room with a leaking ceilingT_T||| but im still glad that im home like finally:) surprisingly i didnt get very annoyed in the middle of the night when i realized the ceiling was leaking, i just took a pail from the toilet and put it underneath. the sound of the water dripping onto the plastic surface was kinda annoying and irritating, but i could still sleep soundly after rolling on the bed for awhile. i think because its home.
dad brought me to the new house he bought thats still under constructions. quite nice though although i really prefer the corner house compared to the centre ones but they were all taken and theyre like more expensive. but i really like the balcony because its so much wider compared to the one we have now. dont know if we’re gonna move in once its completed or if dad’s gonna sell it but looking at my mum i think she’ll wanna move in hahahha and it’ll be how awesome to have a party at the third floorO.O because it’s quite big, from how it looks on the outside.
and how i missed the curry kambing at kayu. ate nasi briyani for lunch with the curry and roti bomb and teh tarik:D sometimes i really hope kayu expands to spore because their indian food is like out-of-the-world-ly awesome:D:D:D went back to the subang pasar malam after so so long and even the tang shui uncle was asking my mum if im her daughter because ive not been there for so long. drank 蛋茶 
:D:D:D:D why they no have dan cha in spore. its this kind of moment when i really wanna just come back to msia and work instead of settling down in spore but ohwells i guess i actually do prefer staying in spore because i have all my friends there although the food here is obviously so much more fantastic. but i can always come back i think so i’d rather earn sing dollars hahha.
and i wonder how im gonna do my course reg when the wireless is down and i have to use this lousy mobile broadband shit. i hope by upgrading it it will get alot alot faster so i can actually still watch shows on youtube and not get annoyed when it loads damn slowly although astro actually has alot of things to watch but who survives without youtube omg.
and im so fascinated by the fact that i can still fit into my primary school camp tshirt which means its either i was damn fat then which is impossible because i rmb being quite skinny hahha or i was blind and chose a damn big size for myself which i think this is more possible:P
i think its quite lame to blog about all these uninteresting mundane nonsense but the underlying thing that i wanna blog about is this feeling of heartwarming happiness and how much ive missed home. i think these 2 plus weeks will pass by really quick and the thought of it actually saddens me so im gonna not think about it and enjoy while i can.
还是家里最好。
xoxo,qing
